“Jens felt it was about time for some declarations and beliefs.

“I believe that mankind at the base of it all is evil; and the fact that every last person is selfish, is more or less a given fact these days. However not all people act and behave as though they are evil people; I mean we can be kind towards each other, but I thoroughly believe that we are all bad people somewhere. If you strip any person down to the skin (metaphorically) they will not be good people, even the Dalai Lama is probably not good, and the pope sure isn’t.

But what is conflicting is that I know of people that have been kind toward me, and one of such (Jacob) is a really good friend of mine, and I consider him to be a thoroughly (nice word, eh?) good person; he is always funny in the cheerful way, and has no negative traits that I know, I have not a single negative thing to say about Jacob; so how can my theory be true?

Well there is a concept in Asian philosophy called eternal sin, and it states that a person is inherently bad; no matter how much good a person does, their human nature will render them evil or bad inevitably, although as depressing as it may sound, it is also the basis for human civilization. If we were all stark raving mad Marxists, who are all good to each other, and never commit a selfish act… Well check out how life was in the USSR and other communist countries, that is what human nature does, even if we all try to be equal, we are all too greedy.

So how can I claim that even people, who act well their entire life, can be a bad or evil person? Even though I feel like I am going in circle just to prove myself; the answer is not that they are bound to do something bad at a point, it is about their human nature.

Besides Jacob there are two other people who have been inherently good to me,  one of those two is Ingrid, and there is nobody besides her and nobody above her, nobody has ever helped me as much as she has, and there is no way that I will ever be able to express my gratitude towards her. Like no one else, she has listened to me, helped me and just talked to me, making me feel better; she has even suggested music to me that has been life altering (Sigur Rós), and I don’t know what I have ever done to deserve it, that kind of treatment belongs with better people.

Yes I admit to it, I am an evil person. Nothing to put me in jail or even get fined, it’s not like I murder people, beat them up or steal from them, but I certainly would never call myself a good person, I have done evil things, thought evil things and not sacrificed myself (again… metaphorically) for the group etc.

Why do I do this? Well mostly I lost faith in mankind long ago, when you get disappointed enough times, you loose faith in your fellow man. Throughout my life, only a few number of people have not betrayed me i.e. disappointed me when I didn’t expect them to. Of course I don’t include people that I don’t know that well, since that would be way to easy. But the list of “good” people is as follows: Jacob, Ingrid and Karoline.

Please note that only 1 of these people go further back than 2 years (Jacob), Ingrid and Karoline I met in Norway in the summer of 2005. I am not trying to make an example saying that all Norwegians are great, you see Jacob isDanish; besides the 2 Norwegian girls are both scouts (met them at a scout camp), and by that I mean that sort away the worst bulk of people (me being a scout for 12 years and ongoing does not make me good).

Each of these 3 people has their own role in my life, and a special meaning for me. It is not something that I intend to write about, since it is very personal, and this is well an open blog for everyone to read (despite that nobody reads it).

And while some people would say “amazing, you have 3 close friends”, my reply is that I don’t live in the same country as any of these 3 people, and while they are almost always ready for some communication, they don’t change my philosophical view on the world, but they mean a lot to me.

But what about family, doesn’t family always want the best for you? Well my family doesn’t, neither my father nor my mother have my trust anymore, since their divorce everything went downhill (as well as the fact that I grew up). Yes they are both happily married today, but not only was I used as a messenger, I was also a tool in their fight for “resources” and me and my sister. Rather then what was in my sisters and my interest, it was about money and who got to have what children where and when, even now that it is more or less settled, with my sister and me in Spain, my parents still go at it occasionally.

Yes this is without a doubt my longest post so far, but it is only about a fraction of my beliefs, and even though I may have been talking in circles, that blame can be put on the IB (International Baccalaureate) since that is what we are supposed to do ;). No what I mean is that if I just wrote it out once, it would be hard to even get people to notice what I was trying to say, but this way it is much easier.”